This Year I Vow To.....

Happy New Year 2012 to Me!! That's right!! I'm hoping that 2012 will be the year of Lisa. I will say that I have some big dreams and expectations but I really do want to make them happen.

I am a firm believer in setting goals but I do have sort of a blurred vision for an exact plan to get there. I will turn 40 this year and for me I'm hoping it's a big wake up call for me in many many ways. I think I've struggled with personal goals in the past. Maybe I've set the bar too high only to be let down when something or someone let me down. I want to start focusing on happiness and family. Those are both topics that can be truly wonderful and difficult all at the same time. I think the best advice I can give myself is to SLOW DOWN. Now that that is said...how do I make it happen? I work full time, have 2 extremely busy children and in general have a packed house life/calendar.

For as long as I can remember I have been burning the candle from both ends so I really don't know how NOT to do that. But I think slowly but surely it's cathing up with me and I'm not liking what I'm seeing. If you ask my husband he'd say I'm the perfect pessimist in that I'm always seeing the glass as "half empty". Well, I will admit that when I near the #40 year what comes to my mind is geesh....my life is half over....BUT then part of me is able to dig deep and realize that you know what.....so what...it's been one hell of an amazing, rewarding, blessed ride! I do recognize that believe me!

I do consider myself a hard worker but very rarely pat myself on the back to a flawed degree. I'm tired and kindof feel out of sorts a lot. I pretty much feel that this frantic pace is starting to affect my health. I'm beginning to embrace the quote from a friend and coworker of mine...."everyone needs a little 10 mg of something to get through the day." I took her advice thank you very much.

I've been very blessed with good health my entire life but several months ago I experienced some hip pain. When I really stop and think about it it's shocking that it hasn't happened sooner. I'm having a hard time trying to convince myself that maybe it's time I do some of the restorative and preventive things I read about and know would help me out.

My patience is pretty non existent for those that really know me so this is a big- time challenge. Yoga, perhaps, is something that I wonder would help but my flexibility is not good either thus bringing on further frustration in that area....who knows....we'll see. Our Chamber of Commerce Business After Hours just happens to be at Studio A this month. But, I have a conflict and can't go..oh well...

Did I tell you that I'm very high strung and a worrier at the same time?? Are you shocked? Has anyone noticed that before?? Haha. I think I've been in secret denial for years. I do think I'm a good, reliable/dependable, fun, and solid friend to most so maybe those qualities bear some positive weight in that aspect.

Did I mention I don't like change? I'm kinda experiencing some of that professionally. That's really a whole other topic for another post. We'll leave that alone right now thank you very much. I just keep praying for the right doors to open and the right signs of what to do will come my way or slap me in the face.

I think most importantly I want to be a better Mom. I don't think I'm a bad Mom I just want to be a better Mom and I think it all starts with ME!! Be there for myself before I can be there for others. Even if it's the ones you love the most.

Well, there ya have it folks. Just a bit of a self reminder of sorts that I have indeed set goals for myself in 2012. I expect to achieve them. Wish me luck.

Blessings and Cheers to all!